Saturday, October 5, 2013

That time I fell into a black hole

I feel like I am just coming out of hibernation. Well, I'll say that I actually wish I had been in hibernation these past three months!
All I wanted to do was sleep. I was unusually tired from working and dealing with kids all day at school and then being a mom to a toddler after work.  
I was having LOTS of migraines. Stomach aches. EXTREME Nausea and dizziness. Not wanting to eat. Not being able to sleep. And nothing I could do made it better. 
I couldn't stand the thought or smell of most foods,of coffee. I didn't want to eat anything besides crackers and fruit (specifically watermelon). Making it through each day seemed way more than I could handle and I had to leave school a few days because I felt so sick. 

I thought something was really wrong with me. After missing my period and taking two pregnancy tests that were negative, I continued to feel sick for weeks. I finally made a doctor appointment and prayed they would give me SOMETHING to help the pain! I thought maybe since I'd stopped nursing KJ, my body was just trying to get back into its regular cycle.

All of this started at the end of July, through August and continued through September. And finally, October 12th, I can say I am starting to feel better. And can deal with the reality of what is wrong. 
So I'll tell you. 

We are expecting baby #2! 
Yep. The tests were wrong. When I finally got to the doctor, they told me I was 7 weeks. It's what I totally thought RIGHT away. The symptoms were JUST like last time (only last time it didn't really hit me till I was about 7 weeks). This time I experienced symptoms literally the first week we got pregnant. and when I took those tests a couple weeks later, it was still too early to tell. So, after our surprise happy news, I was able to ride out the following weeks of sickness with a secret joy in my heart that has helped get me through this.  (I THINK this time was worse than last time, or maybe it was the same but has just lasted a lot longer. Either way, PTL I am about through it!)

That's me at 11 weeks, no bump yet. But now at 13 weeks it's there! Way earlier than the first time around when I waited FOREVER for that bump. And the first time around I started documenting the (lack of) belly right when I found out (6 weeks) even though there was nothing really at ALL til maybe 15 weeks! I was a little over eager, but it IS really exciting to finally show!
I am now almost through the 1st trimester and we can finally share the news! And I can finally function again! Please be praying for our little one! We know lots can go wrong and are trying to trust the Lord and not be anxious. We are due April 21, so the kids will be 21 months apart. (Let's see if we can get KJ potty trained before this baby comes! HA! That would be a miracle!) Pray that these two little ones will be best buddies! Pray they have a special bond and that KJ adapts quickly to her younger sibling. I am totally taking advice from mamas about the changes a second one brings and dealing with a toddler's adjustment to a new family member!

We find out around Thanksgiving if it's a boy or a girl and are SO PUMPED to find out! A girl would be awesome since I'd already have all the clothes and stuff and KJ would have a little sis to pal around with.  And of course I love little girls! But I do get nervous about them comparing and competing with each other and would have to really pray over that one. If we have a boy, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH BOYS! Haha! I just had one sis growing up and was always SO AWKWARD around boys. But I'd be soooo pumped for Kent to have a son and I always wanted a brother when I was growing up. I LOVE my sister's 3 boys and would be so excited. Kent is convinced we are having all girls, and I think he's right. So we will both be super surprised if it's a boy. Well, we will keep ya posted!

How far along? 13 weeks
Size: 2.9 inches, .81oz  A peach!
Symptoms? Nausea, stomach issues, tiredness, headaches, can't sleep
Weight Gain? I've lost a few pounds but that's about to change
Maternity clothes? none yet. Last time I didn't need any til like halfway through, but I'm sure It'll be earlier this time
Sleep? Awful.  Takes me a LONG time to fall asleep because I'm not feeling well especially at night and when I'm just laying there and am not distracted, the pain is worse. I take Tylenol pm almost every night. (Don't judge!)
Food Cravings? Fruit. I won't eat apples (my usual favorite) but any fruit that's juicy and soft. Even fruity candy I have been indulging in, like fruit snacks and skittles. (Vegetables sound disgusting to me, as do most meats!)  Also, crackers, chips and bread always sound good (I've been loading up on carbs!). Sometimes I'll do cheese and crackers for a meal, or like crackers and peanut butter (with maybe a pickle or two on the side ; ) But a hot meal does NOT sound good at all. We've been getting bagels a lot for breakfast, eating sushi pretty often (not raw) and Kent is indulging me with anything else I suddenly crave, like slurpees, popsicles, ice cream or pizza (he loves when I'm pregnant because I normally never want pizza and he wants it like every day! But during pregnancy we probably get it once a week!)
Anything make you queasy? I haven't been able to cook for the past couple months. Any strong smells really take it out of me. I don't even like to look in the fridge because seeing food or smelling it could send me over.  I can't drink/smell coffee (which I'm normally addicted to). Mint gum bothers me, just like last time. I gag when I brush my teeth because of the mint toothpaste. Can't even use my mint lipgloss right now!

On a positive note, being sick this trimester has allowed me to 1. Get out of all dirty diapers when my husband is at home 2. Take a major break from cooking and baking 3. Eat out more, which we never do because we are really frugal about spending $ on that and 4. Read again! I used to read ALL THE TIME before I had KJ and especially before I got married. Feeling sick has made me want to lay around a lot so I have picked up the habit of reading again which I had lost somewhere down  the line. So it hasn't been a completely horrible past few months : ) 

Anyway, we just made a visit to Northwest Arkansas to visit all our buddies and got to share our news and had a blast seeing everyone. And I'm just PUMPED to be through the worst of this pregnancy and now can be excited! Bring on baby #2!


You need this recipe. I know, I know. Some of my usual 'healthy' recipes aren't to die for. Some of you may have tried one and said, "No more recipes from Jen's blog, thank you." But this one is one everyone will love. Promise!
I haven't been eating my usual apple a day for breakfast lately and realized I had a bunch of apples that would soon go bad if I didn't use them up. So I looked up apple recipes and found this amazing one for Apple Pie Bread from a great site called What's Cooking with Ruthie. It's not even horribly unhealthy! Here is where I got it from, and the ingredients and instructions below are straight from her site. These pictures are how mine turned out. It's really quick and easy and you don't have to use any weird ingredients. It will make your house smell awesome too!
Get some yummy apples! Tis the season.

The streusal topping is divine!
I made a mini loaf too and sampled it right out of the oven. It's so moist and flavorful!

The only difference in mine from her recipe is that I used white wheat flour, different kinds of apples, and truvia instead of normal sugar. Also, the browned butter is a bit tricky, but be patient, it's worth it.
Serves: 8
Recipe Type: Sweet Bread
Prep time: 20 mins
Cook time: 70 mins
  • ¼ C browned butter
  • ¼ C applesauce
  • 1 C sugar
  • 2 eggs (or 1 egg and 2 egg whites to cut down on fat/cholesterol)
  • 1 tsp vanilla
  • 2 C shredded apple (I used 3 jonathon)
  • 2 C flour
  • 2 tsp baking powder
  • ½ tsp sea salt
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
Streusal Topping
  • ¼ C light brown sugar, packed
  • 3 Tbsp flour
  • ½ tsp cinnamon
  • ¼ C whole oats
  • 2 Tbsp cold butter
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
  2. Cooking spray and flour a 9×5 loaf pan.
  3. Set aside.
  4. In a small sauce pan over medium high heat, brown the butter- cook stirring constantly until the butter is slightly browned and aromatic.
  5. Set aside.
  6. In a large mixing bowl, cream butter and sugar.
  7. Add eggs, vanilla, applesauce, and shredded apples.
  8. Mix until incorporated.
  9. In a medium bowl combine flour, baking powder, salt, and cinnamon.
  10. Add half flour mixture to apple mixture and mix in.
  11. Add remaining flour and mix just until incorporated.
  12. Pour batter into prepared loaf pan.
  13. Topping:
  14. In a small bowl combine brown sugar, flour, cinnamon.
  15. Cut the butter into small pieces and add to flour using a pastry cutter or a hand mixer on low speed, mix until small pieces.
  16. Add oats and mix in.
  17. Sprinkle over top the batter and bake 60-70 minutes or until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean.
  18. Let stand 10 minutes on a cooling rack, then remove loaf from pan and finish cooling.
  19. (turn it out over a counter top because the topping is a little crumbly, I just scooped crumbles up and sprinkled it back on!)
  20. Enjoy!
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